citrus
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I'm am so relieved. I still have to go to the doctor for my ears and one for my digestion. Some videos encourage me about belephasm, while it is rare and has caused a lot of problems for me, good thing is I can train my brain some. Good news soon.This girl deaf and born blind is a lawyer and lives a outstanding life. I've been googling about and found out it is a Nervous system type thing. Lots of other details. I had nerve surgery one time. So I am able to re do my mind. This girl was in a wheel chair having leg spasm with scared me more, but then she got up and started dancing. She had to retrain her brain to tell her to move. Kind of like move it or loose it. I love dancing. Maybe I was meant to dance. My eye spasm are more complicated, but I can get botox or practice training my brain to keep my eyes open. Of course I really do think it is harder. We squint in the sun ( I wear sunglasses) maybe I should fund stronger ones.when we pray we close our eyes which is good. We close our eyes to kiss and everything else because how it touches our hearts. I have to try to keep my eyes open more and probably stay off the phone more because of the blue light to turn it off some how. I wear a mask at night to sleep, but really I need to respond to the sunlight and open my eyes. I don't know how to fix it. I may need botox every few months by my reasearching. I notice when I'm stressed out or have anxiety it happens more. I don't know if I can retrain my eyes, but maybe I can. A person on you tube did and an look now. I can practice reading more and slower. I'm just learning. I haven't seen a doctor yet but I am feeling more hopeful. The girl in the wheel chair ( this has nothing to do with people on tv claiming miracles when they aren't) anywho she learned to tell her brain to move and walk. People can learn to walk again. I give God rhe glory. I need to not care about what I look like if disability shows. But I am more hopeful today. And I am going to see a doctor for my digestive system. The gut health is so important and it seems like I'm impossible, but I am making slow progress. My hands were burning kind of like when you shock someone because of friction and found out that if it stings it is healing itself and should let up. I'm working on my feet, plantar fiscitous. Itbis so important to be able to walk around. I danced by myself today. My feet didn't hurt but I am going to becareful because I. May be still healing. I feel a bit better today and maybe that is what I need to do. Recover and train myself to read again, dance again, ect. I have never have been a professional dancer so there is that, but I can do it for excessive at home. So I am more hopeful today. Whatever I look like when I have spasm I should not be worried how I look. Please pray my brain will retrain itself.little by little, but I still have hope now and trying to accept myself. Trying to train my self thoughts. I don't know about my heating, but that iscwhat is next. It us all going to take a long time getting appointments and going back and forth. I'm just feeling more peace today. Whatever happened happens, but I always am loved by God and trying to retain myself. I don't know how to retrain specifically, but I am learning and trying. Trying to eat healthier too.