Christ_empowered
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I got up early early again! In my small southern city. Or rather in my modest nice apartment in a complex in a small southern city. 
I got in my vehicle
and drove around a bitā¦I really shouldnāt have my glasses were not clean and neither was the windshield for some reasonā¦but I did andā¦
At nearly 40! With a label
of schizophrenia ! I seem to have adultedā¦note the past tense itās a blessing in and of itselfā¦a bit.
The small southern city
is pretty much America 
with a southern drawl lots of bbq 
joints and a rather frightening number of SBC churches 
ļø. Andā¦
As I drove I almost felt as if I was in the Polar Express. Dark dark darkā¦cool and crispā¦headlights and sometimes street lights especially in the sprawl. And there is always sprawl in any city USA .
Iāve adulted in Christ Jesus who alone can truly save anyone and truthfully? Only Jesus Christ is able to adult me for some reason any number of reasons.
My parents are amazing and probably waking up
now in their house 
in a nearby small southern town. Donāt get sentimental because small southern towns never were what they pretended to be. Then again no place ever was or isā¦
Their town saw a housing boom
and now the population is set to double just like thatā¦
It isnāt just that the population is growing there or that this small southern city is growing too and has grown alreadyā¦
Itās that more people move and even more people move in their place and nothing is the same as 20 10 even 5 years ago. Everyone is more about their own business
and whatās in it for them and their family and friendsā¦I see now friends are a passing thing anyway friends today forgotten tomorrowā¦.
Maybe itās the true cooling down of life and intensity of it allā¦that gets to me.
Maybe weāre all on the polar express?
I got in my vehicle
and drove around a bitā¦I really shouldnāt have my glasses were not clean and neither was the windshield for some reasonā¦but I did andā¦At nearly 40! With a label
of schizophrenia ! I seem to have adultedā¦note the past tense itās a blessing in and of itselfā¦a bit. The small southern city
is pretty much America with a southern drawl lots of bbq joints and a rather frightening number of SBC churches ļø. Andā¦As I drove I almost felt as if I was in the Polar Express. Dark dark darkā¦cool and crispā¦headlights and sometimes street lights especially in the sprawl. And there is always sprawl in any city USA .
Iāve adulted in Christ Jesus who alone can truly save anyone and truthfully? Only Jesus Christ is able to adult me for some reason any number of reasons.
My parents are amazing and probably waking up
now in their house in a nearby small southern town. Donāt get sentimental because small southern towns never were what they pretended to be. Then again no place ever was or isā¦Their town saw a housing boom
and now the population is set to double just like thatā¦It isnāt just that the population is growing there or that this small southern city
is growing too and has grown alreadyā¦Itās that more people move and even more people move in their place and nothing is the same as 20 10 even 5 years ago. Everyone is more about their own business
and whatās in it for them and their family and friendsā¦I see now friends are a passing thing anyway friends today forgotten tomorrowā¦.Maybe itās the true cooling down of life and intensity of it allā¦that gets to me.
Maybe weāre all on the polar express?