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dustnmyeye
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My best friend needs prayer. I need prayer. She turned from God a few years ago, and I just confronted her about it. I was afraid, but God finally pushed me to do it. She said:
"I never understood a very important thing for me about christianity. I never understood why a god so great would after an infinite amount of time decide to make humans to worship him, but even though hes in control of everything still lets the devil do whatever and let humans sin to punish them once they die. Though we could never understand his reasonings, my mind is so designed to understand things and their logical sense. I couldnt find it. And faith just wasnt enough for me i guess... I couldnt continue to believe something i didnt understand. In the process of realizing this i felt so scared. I wanted to believe. But i stopped going to church cause i felt like i wasnt meaning what i was singing & sometimes i didnt sing because i didnt mean it. Then i stopped going. I didnt want to pretend or feel like i should. I had nightmares for months about dying and waking up frantically knowing i would go to hell. I would pray, jesus, i still believe in you! But i knew it was only a selfish attempt to not go to hell"
Rereading this, I'm so scared for her. I love her with all of my heart...picturing her like this kills me. I never knew that she was doubting...I didn't find out until a year ago.
I can't do this by myself. God has to change her heart. Please pray for us.
"I never understood a very important thing for me about christianity. I never understood why a god so great would after an infinite amount of time decide to make humans to worship him, but even though hes in control of everything still lets the devil do whatever and let humans sin to punish them once they die. Though we could never understand his reasonings, my mind is so designed to understand things and their logical sense. I couldnt find it. And faith just wasnt enough for me i guess... I couldnt continue to believe something i didnt understand. In the process of realizing this i felt so scared. I wanted to believe. But i stopped going to church cause i felt like i wasnt meaning what i was singing & sometimes i didnt sing because i didnt mean it. Then i stopped going. I didnt want to pretend or feel like i should. I had nightmares for months about dying and waking up frantically knowing i would go to hell. I would pray, jesus, i still believe in you! But i knew it was only a selfish attempt to not go to hell"
Rereading this, I'm so scared for her. I love her with all of my heart...picturing her like this kills me. I never knew that she was doubting...I didn't find out until a year ago.
I can't do this by myself. God has to change her heart. Please pray for us.