[__ Prayer __] My life is turning into Hell.

[Tyler]

I'm 17. I have depression, ADHD, social phobia, and anger issues. I take Vyvanse for my ADHD and it helps relieve some of my social phobia, and Prozac to relieve my depression and social phobia. I abuse Vyvanse by taking more than I should every morning. I am addicted to masturbation and pornography and I can't stop myself no matter how hard I try. I have been falling away from God lately. I tried chewing tobacco a few days ago in the parking lot at my work while I was supposed to be pushing carts and got extremely sick, puked twice, and was out there for almost two hours because I was too weak to get up. I lied to them and said I was doing carts and was extremely worried for the next two days that they were going to check the cameras to see what I was doing and that I'd get fired. I'm never doing that again though. I lie to my parents ever day saying I did my homework and lie about other things. I also get very mad at them for no reason at all. Today at school my friend was screwing with electronics and controls in my car in the morning like a man with rabies but ended up stopping. Then after school he flung my door open while I was in the driver's seat and started screwing around like crazy again and I was trying to get him out of the car, so then I punched him when I knew I should have just been mature and turned the other cheek and play it off. Then he went to the back of my car and started screwing with something so I got out and kicked a dent in his truck and everybody I know saw me do that, even my friend who was in the car with me that has never seen or knew this side of me existed. He was looking at me like I had two heads and had to get a ride from somebody else. My friend that was messing with my car was extremely mad and everybody looked at me like I was the biggest jerk on the planet and was yelling at me and calling me names and whatnot. Then, because this is how completely stupid I am, I kicked a dent in the side of my own car to lower myself to make me feel even, and once again looked like a fool in front of everybody and they started yelling at me again and thinking how stupid I was. Everyone took pictures of my car and put them on Facebook saying "Who is stupid enough to kick their own car?" and is already starting to get nasty comments. Now I had to tell my mom the story and she's on the phone with him and his mom. Oh and I also bombed two tests today I lied that I studied for. I lost my car, probably all my friends, my respect and trust, my grades are going to go downhill, and I just dumped a 50,000 lb. weight on my depression and anxiety issues. If I weren't to burn in Hell for eternity I would probably kill myself, I probably already would have months or years ago if God wasn't in my life. Idk what I'm going to do each day I have to worry about all my negative thoughts, constantly feeling judged and inferior, trying to hold back temptation but failing, anger, ect. Please pray that my life will turn out ok. Thanks so much and God bless.

 

[handy]

Tyler,

It's time to talk with your doctor and let your doctor know that things have spun out of control and that you are not taking the prescription as you are supposed to. The fact that you are abusing the drug is most likely the cause of things feeling as out of control as they do, as well as your irrational anger and outbursts. Once you and your doctor work out the med situation, you probably begin to feel better.

Secondly, there are things in your life you can control, and things you cannot. Most of what you list here are things you can control. Taking back control on some of these things will help your depression as well.

Getting the prescriptions back on track is one thing you can control. Committing yourself to telling the truth is also another thing you can control. You have already learned that lying about things doesn't shield you from the consequences of your actions, all it does is just add more to your burden.

Once you begin to feel as if you are a little more under control, then you can start to work on repairing your friendships and the other things you list. Don't feel as if you have to make everything right all at once. Take steps, but start with the step of calling your doctor, right away, and getting the abuse of the meds under control.

And yes, I will certainly be praying for you! You are still quite young, and there is plenty of time in your life to turn things around. You are not alone, God will help you, He really will. The fact that you are turning to Him by asking for prayer is showing that you are faithful, and He will be faithful to you as well, EVEN IF IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT. I wanted to emphasize that last part, because your feelings can really cloud what is truth. That God loves you and is faithful to you is truth!


Father in Heaven, I just want to lift up my young brother in Christ, Tyler. Things are very overwhelming for him right now. I pray that You will help him gain control back. Self-control is one of the fruits of Your Spirit, and I pray that the Spirit will bless him with self-control as he works to sort out these different issues. I pray that his parents will be forgiving and supportive of him. I pray that You give Tyler's parents godly discernment on how best to help their son through this time. Forgive Tyler in the areas in which he has sinned, and help him seek out the way of escape when he is tempted to sin again. Most of all, bring him the comfort of Your Holy Spirit, so that he can feel at peace as he works out these issues. We know that You have a plan for Tyler, that he might become a man of God, equipped to do Your good will. In the Name of Your Son, Jesus, I ask these things for Tyler. Amen!


Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans that I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope."

Mom hug time :smt056 Hang in there, sweetie! Things truly can and will get better!

 

[sherri2]

Wow. Bad week. Sorry to hear of your troubles. Pornography will suck you down faster then many things. It feels like you're trying to struggle out of a black hole and feeling like the walls keep crumbling underneath you.

The best advice I can really give you is to hand complete control of your life over to God. Give him everything. I think you'll find it takes a huge amount of pressure off. And once you're in that position, instead of you trying to do life with Gods help, he now has a valuable commodity on his hands and can fix it how he chooses. In otherwords your soul is his and he wants to repair and heal all the things wrong so he can work through you (and just because you're his son.) The more access he has, the more access he has to heal and develop. Complete access means you rest in his hands. He owns you. You belong to him.

It's a completly different category of christianity and perhaps the beginning of the rest of your life.

Sometimes people get eaten by life, and if you're not coping so well now, it might be the best decision you ever make.

I'll pray too.

God bless




PS. I had a pretty tragic upbringing too, even though I was brought up in the church, and God was pretty condemning in my world view because of the way he had been presented by others who used him as a tool to control me. Anyways, when I became spirit filled a number of years ago I kept hearing people talk about how much God loved me, blah, blah, blah. To me it was something I believed in terms of God loving everyone, but not something I'd ever experienced myself. Anyway one day I asked God if he loved me and it was like he pulled the covers back and showed me how he felt towards me but still only a very shaded version because as a human being I couldn't handle it.

There was so much love I was almost embaressed for him. It was bordering on uncomfortable. And that was only the part I could handle.

God is much bigger then we limited mortals can understand and so is his love. He's a mighty God and when he's for you, you never need to fear anything. He's too powerful. I've suffered a lot in life but Gods nature never changes and I know that. He's also bigger then anything that threatens me or my life, and no matter what, everything will work out for good. Knowing just that can take you a long way.

All the best with it.

 

[repentyou]

Hello Tyler

First of all it is the best you can do and you do it - go back to God every time. He love you, you are him child. Never turn off your face from him, independently what bad things you do. We all are bad and have to teach us with believe in God. Just continue to looking for God, God will, God love, God providence, God intervention.
Believe him- that is the way. The God will show you the way to change yourself to win all your weakness. But you have to trust him. Christ said all we are childs of the God, and we have to love each other how he love us. Trust it and everytime do it. Do it when you go to talk with someone, when you go to school, when you stay angry full yourself with love, and peace. When you make plans in your room do it with love to your neighbour. Love truly in your soul and in your heart and in all your decisions. And trust God he have providence for everything, and he will give you the things that are the best for you.
Christ said: Ask your Heavenly Father and don't lose weight, he will give good things on childs who ask from him. - Pray and believe he hear you. And he is ready to give you good things, but we are bad and don't trust him and we don't know what is really good for us. Because of it pray and don't stop he will teach you. The really good thing for us is to seek him, him will.
It is good that you what help from God. He will help you. But you have to trust him, to love him, to seek him will, to give what you can for him and to trust.

I pray for you brother. God love and peace let be with you.