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abeautifulletdown
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I normally don't ask people I don't know to pray for me, but I figure it's worth a shot. Here it goes.
So many things are happening in my life right now and it honestly keeps going downhill. My student loan for this year isn't even going to help very much for expenses. Once the school took out their tuition for this semester, I was left with $1400. Not very much when you have to pay for rent, transportation, groceries, a cell phone and credit card bill, and school supplies, never mind anything else.
I am an art student, and my course usually requires me to spend a lot on supplies. Art supplies aren't cheap unfortunately. If I can't buy the supplies, I can't do the projects. If I can't do the projects, I won't get the grades, and if I can't get the grades, well, I can't stay at the college. It's a horrible catch 22. I have worked SO hard this past few months just to get good grades. I don't want to have to give it all up now.
I am behind on rent, and I am terrified that I am going to get evicted. The management for my apartment building emailed me today and said that if they don't get the rent money by the 11th, I will have to move out. I really don't want to have to put my mom in the position of having me move back in with her right now. She would do it in a heartbeat, but things are also tough for her. She's finding it hard to get a job, despite having lots of experience.
I have been looking for a job here ever since August. I cannot even begin to tell you how many applications and resumes I have sent out, not to mention that some places don't even bother thanking you for applying. I finally heard back from a photography studio yesterday. They want me to come in for an interview this Friday night, and i'm praying that all goes well. I applied for a bursary at school, but i still haven't heard if I've gotten it or not. Honestly, I don't even know where the extra money is coming from to go home this weekend.
As for God, I don't even know. It just seems as if he's not listening. Bullet after bullet keeps getting shot at me, and I'm just so frustrated. Sometimes I wonder if God really cares or not what happens to me. My friends keep telling me that things will get better, but it's very easy to say when you're not in that situation. I feel as if God has given up on me.
Please just pray that everything works out. Finances, school, the interview, my relationship with God. Thanks. I really appreciate it.
So many things are happening in my life right now and it honestly keeps going downhill. My student loan for this year isn't even going to help very much for expenses. Once the school took out their tuition for this semester, I was left with $1400. Not very much when you have to pay for rent, transportation, groceries, a cell phone and credit card bill, and school supplies, never mind anything else.
I am an art student, and my course usually requires me to spend a lot on supplies. Art supplies aren't cheap unfortunately. If I can't buy the supplies, I can't do the projects. If I can't do the projects, I won't get the grades, and if I can't get the grades, well, I can't stay at the college. It's a horrible catch 22. I have worked SO hard this past few months just to get good grades. I don't want to have to give it all up now.
I am behind on rent, and I am terrified that I am going to get evicted. The management for my apartment building emailed me today and said that if they don't get the rent money by the 11th, I will have to move out. I really don't want to have to put my mom in the position of having me move back in with her right now. She would do it in a heartbeat, but things are also tough for her. She's finding it hard to get a job, despite having lots of experience.
I have been looking for a job here ever since August. I cannot even begin to tell you how many applications and resumes I have sent out, not to mention that some places don't even bother thanking you for applying. I finally heard back from a photography studio yesterday. They want me to come in for an interview this Friday night, and i'm praying that all goes well. I applied for a bursary at school, but i still haven't heard if I've gotten it or not. Honestly, I don't even know where the extra money is coming from to go home this weekend.
As for God, I don't even know. It just seems as if he's not listening. Bullet after bullet keeps getting shot at me, and I'm just so frustrated. Sometimes I wonder if God really cares or not what happens to me. My friends keep telling me that things will get better, but it's very easy to say when you're not in that situation. I feel as if God has given up on me.
Please just pray that everything works out. Finances, school, the interview, my relationship with God. Thanks. I really appreciate it.
